INSPIRATION: Beyond Limitations

When I was younger, I used to get inspired from anything, anywhere, at any given time. I could not control it or expect it, it just happened.  Similar to Star Wars, it was like a force infused with a “supernatural” high. A sudden burst of energy – adrenaline coursing through the brain connecting to the flow. In the end, it produces a product that was always satisfactory to myself and others.

Now, that I’m older, it has become that much more difficult to find inspiration. In the beginning, I was searching, thirsting for it. I felt like a well – drying up fast. I become desperate until one day the writer’s block was so hefty in size that the flow in my creativity ceased for about 2 to 3 years.

I lost myself, my voice. Like Maya Angelou, for a time, I remained silent in my writing except academically. Then, it seemed like everyone was asking me about my writing. “Have you written anything new?” “You need to keep writing.” Etc. Etc. It made me feel incompetent, empty.

Then, one of my inspirational, favorite people, whom I can’t reveal at this time, told me, “Inspiration is around you. It can be found everywhere, anywhere.” Once he reminded me of that, the creative juices started flowing exponentially. I was back!!! However, I could tell that my writing went through a metamorphosis. It transformed; as a result, I grew. I was just so thankful to him that I shared what I had written with him. And he provided a in-depth analysis. I was enthralled! He enjoyed it. The writer’s block just magically went away.

In addition, the topic of inspirational poetry. Now, don’t get me wrong. I love all the categories of poetry. But most people don’t write just inspirational poetry. People go through many stages and phases of life. So to expect it to remain the same is very obtuse thinking.

But an individual wanted me to read of my poems, but she wanted it to only be inspirational poetry about life. I told her that I write about life. What I’m experiencing in that moment, what I’m witnessing or feeling, it’s life. A stage or a phase I’m going through.

I’m saying that to say this. No one wants to read about “happy-go-lucky”, “lovey-dovey” stuff all the time. Because no one will be able to relate to it…People thrive on pain and chaos. Why? Because happiness, depression, sadness, loneliness…all of these are apart of life.

For one person or persons to be able to express this through any art form is commendable. There are so many people who cannot or will not express what is going on with them. They will rather take it to their graves. It takes courage to write, to sing, to paint, etc. to be able to COMMUNICATE.

All of this is inspiration within itself! Like my anonymous person said, “Inspiration can be found anywhere. It’s all around us.” To limit it just to what one thinks it should be….creativity slowly dies; and. the flow stalls like a car refuses to start or go.

Expand the mind, and let INSPIRATION flow! Break off the valve and sees what happens! It’s limitless with possibilities and opportunities!!!

Investing In Self

This will probably be the shortest blog I write or type.

For a long while, I have been searching and yearning for someone to take me under their wing as a mentee. Unfortunately, I have not been able to find or come across one. Then, the people who would have have passed on.

So for the past couple of days, I have been thinking that maybe I need to take the time to invest in myself. No one seems to want to take the time to help, so I just need to help myself. People want to tell you what to do or how to do it, but no one wants to SHOW anybody how to do anything anymore. It’s like “I got mine, go get yours.” It really shouldn’t be that way.

I’m also learning that people make time for what they want to make time for; so, I can’t just sit around, hoping for someone to make or take time. Then I realized, I’m not going to get anywhere waiting on someone’s time schedule.

One of my classmates was telling me that he admired what I said about investing in myself. He was like, “Cut the bs and go ahead and write that book. You are starting and onto something. You just don’t see the way others do.” LOL, he maybe onto something.

This coming week, I’m working on me. Hopefully, a sponsor or someone will take the time to point me in the right direction. But I have to make a decision and take that step forward.

Yes, I’m nervous as crap and a little scared. Sitting around and waiting on others is not getting me anywhere…

In this case, the CHANGE begins with me.

Moral Conflict: The Concept of “WORK”

For the past couple of weeks, this concept of “work” has become quite the topic. Everybody wants something whether it’s a job, a house, a relationship, lost weight, etc. But in this era, no one wants to put in the work. Everything is instant – easy to access that it doesn’t require anyone to do much of anything.

My whole life I learned the value of hard work and perseverance; NO, I’m not where I want to be, but I keep on pushing and praying. No, I’m not strong in my faith like I should. But I thank God for the power of prayer and that genuine people keep me uplifted in prayer.

But I digress…back to the concept of work. I will use an example. Like me, I want to lose weight; however, I can’t seem to motivate myself to do it or find the time. So if I don’t take the time do it, then I won’t lose the weight.

Another example, everybody wants a relationship. You do just enough to get that person. After you get that person, you get complacent and comfortable and soon stop putting in the work to keep them. Anybody can get anybody, but the hard thing is to KEEP them. A relationship is just a level below marriage. For years, I’ve heard people say marriage is hard work. What do you think a relationship, friendship, and everything else is?! Nothing in life is free or easy. If it is, SOMETHING IS WRONG!!! You got to give in order to get!! Then you have people to pray for God to give or to send them someone or something. But when you get it, you misuse and abuse it. You run from it…You don’t want to do the work.

I don’t think people actually grasp this concept anymore!! So for the last example is my favorite: school. People would rather pay others to do their work rather than put in the work themselves! Why go to school if you don’t want to take the time to do the work?!!! Why waste time?

If you won’t invest in yourself, why would anyone else want to? That’s just like going to work: if you don’t work or go to work, you won’t get paid. 0 + 0 = 0!!!! No time, no effect = 0 as the result.

So I recently signed up as a freelance writer, but I quickly learned that it was something I could not do it. I don’t want to do someone’s  schoolwork for them. I did my own work, and I definitely did not have money to pay others to do it. But now, I have the confidence in some of my abilities because I know how to do/write a paper, do the research, etc.

I do not like to enable people – and that’s what I did. It’s not helping people by doing the work for them. They will never learn it for themselves.  Then on top of that, that’s still plagiarism. If you get a job that requires you to demonstrate these skills in person, what are you going to do?

But I resigned from doing that….it conflicted with my morale. I know how to do what I do because I invested in myself along with mentors, friends, instructors, and others too. Yes, I don’t mind doing freelance for stuff like a blog, content writer, and all along those lines. But I will not do anyone’s schoolwork for them anymore!!!!

So I need to keep my word to myself – the only way for people to learn how to do something, you got to put in the work!!! If you don’t work, don’t expect results!!!!

I don’t mind showing or sharing with someone how to do things but doing it for them…that’s over.

Not only am I cheating them but myself as well.